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YELLOW | THE HEALER

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SHE/HER

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TWENTY-TWO

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MARCH 3RD

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VIRIDIAN FOREST

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POKEMON ASSOCIATION

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MODERATE

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DEMISEXUAL

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ARTIST + HEALER

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i will be brave

A dream of a future where everyone is happy. One where there might be no fighting, no conflict. Yellow had dreamed of a future like that so many times. But each time a new threat appeared, it would seem less and less likely to ever arrive. The fighting would continue until one side one despite whatever casualties lay around, encasing those involved. When she had the chance to look back the weight of those lives hung heavy, making her wonder if anyone else felt this way. Being a Pokedex Holder, saving the world, stopping all these threats. Succeeding protected and saved so many lives but those loves lost in the process.... there was never going to be a way to bring them back. Of course there were always miracles.[break][break]

But miracles were never granted to her anymore.[break][break]

Because no matter how many times she tried, she always lost someone.[break][break]

The first had been Red, a Trainer she aspired to after he had saved her in the Viridian Forest. He taught her to treat Pokemon as friends but after that day they had always been family. After he won the Pokemon League he felt so many level above her, almost unreachable. Not to mention if she were to try it would be a long way to fall back down to Earth considering that Red was like the sun. Then in the blink of an eye he was gone and Yellow decided that she was going to find him. Showing up in Pallet Town, taking Pika and traveling everywhere that the clues took her. [break][break]

Lance was the second person she lost. People always said that you didn't know what you had until it was gone... that was how Yellow felt about Lance. They were the same - both children of Viridian Forest with special abilities that only they understood. Seeing into a Pokemon's memories, healing them when they were injured, talking to their closest friends in a way that no one else was able to. But he had always been the flipside to her coin. While Yellow had grown up in a plentiful place with people and Pokemon alike, Lance had experienced pain and suffering which lead him to form the Elite Four of Kanto who were bent on stopping human beings from harming Pokemon by eradicating them. During their fight she had protected the humans but... at the same time understood how Lance felt. She hadn't seen him since that day and it felt like there was something missing. [break][break]

Now she had lost Red again. One day he just stopped talking to her. Lost all contact and she didn't want to chase him up. It was like something was twisting inside her chest, a bit like betrayal but more like loneliness. It wasn't just Red who stopped talking to his friends: she did too because she didn't know what to do. Keeping away from Blue and Green, from her Juniors and people in general. Chuchu and Ratty were her closest companions just like always. [break][break]

At least she didn't need a miracle to keep them by her side.[break][break]

i will not let anything take away

Lyeant was a region in turmoil and she didn't want anything to do with it. Not after everything that had happened. All Yellow wanted to do was to stay in Kanto with her Pokemon. She did for a while, but even her home began feeling lonely. Finding an alternative for the people she lost wasn't working and isolating herself from people didn't help at all even if she did need that time to think. But what was she meant to do? How was she meant to do it? How do you apologize to everyone after purposely walking away from them all? She didn't know and that terrified her. If they got mad she would never be able to handle it. She didn't want to lose anyone else. She wouldn't be capable of losing anyone else.[break][break]

It was Chuchu that pushed her forward. A single word from her Pokemon, that single sliver of encouragement, was enough to get her walking toward the boat to Lyeant. Each step leaving a mark behind her that she was tempted to turn and see, but the words of her friend kept her eyes looking forwards. Not once did she let go, not once did Chuchu let her. Even while on that boat Yellow continued to look down at her feet and cry silently where no one could see her.[break][break]

The tears that should have been shed years ago.[break][break]

Now she was an artist and a healer. Someone who helped others without any hesitation. Someone who created, not destroyed. Even if there were things she couldn't change, maybe she could start here with just one thing. The pencil on paper, all those simple sketches. Anyone would notice a pattern if they looked through the book. A gust of wind would blow and send the paper flying with an embarrassed blonde trainer chasing after them.[break][break]

Each picture was of Red and Lance.[break][break]

what's in front of me

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>>> TL;DR

there is nothing left to take, but i still try to reach. try to swallow it all down, yet i can't seem to breathe. just a single pill of mine, nothing else would suffice - i take it in, now i'm alive. my phone is set on lock, and i don't really care. there's a tangle and a knot that i cannot repair. i'm a tragedy, i'm ugly, i'm trying to hide. i say "hello", then wave "goodbye". see me fall down - let me die here slowly. nothing goes right, not a trace of honestly. i'm to blame, so i'll remain. black, white; day, night; it's all the same. see it run down - cut away, no worries. say no more. i can surely say that i've had enough. i still refuse to believe.



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>>> FRIENDSHIP

see me fall down - let me die here slowly. nothing goes right, not a trace of honesty. i'm to blame, so i'll remain. black, white; day, night; it's all the same. see is run down - cut away, no worries. say no more. i can surely say that i've had enough. i can't remember - that very day, that very day changed me. happiness died like a light i carried. i'll sleep tonight and hope to finally leave a world which i don't believe, a life which i don't need, and then i'll finally be free.

>>> HATESHIP

see me fall down - let me die here slowly. nothing goes right, not a trace of honesty. i'm to blame, so i'll remain. black, white; day, night; it's all the same. see is run down - cut away, no worries. say no more. i can surely say that i've had enough. i can't remember - that very day, that very day changed me. happiness died like a light i carried. i'll sleep tonight and hope to finally leave a world which i don't believe, a life which i don't need, and then i'll finally be free.

>>> LOVESHIP

see me fall down - let me die here slowly. nothing goes right, not a trace of honesty. i'm to blame, so i'll remain. black, white; day, night; it's all the same. see is run down - cut away, no worries. say no more. i can surely say that i've had enough. i can't remember - that very day, that very day changed me. happiness died like a light i carried. i'll sleep tonight and hope to finally leave a world which i don't believe, a life which i don't need, and then i'll finally be free.

>>> WANTED

see me fall down - let me die here slowly. nothing goes right, not a trace of honesty. i'm to blame, so i'll remain. black, white; day, night; it's all the same. see is run down - cut away, no worries. say no more. i can surely say that i've had enough. i can't remember - that very day, that very day changed me. happiness died like a light i carried. i'll sleep tonight and hope to finally leave a world which i don't believe, a life which i don't need, and then i'll finally be free.