Feb 7, 2018 13:34:07 GMT -6
Post by iPod Nano on Feb 7, 2018 13:34:07 GMT -6
So. Uh..
I know that the site just opened recently and all, and I'm sorry. I'm honestly really, really, really sorry about this. But the best way I can put it into words? Well.. Uh.. Phew. Hookay. Wow. I feel guilty. But here; lemme at least explain my situation right now. Honestly, I just feel even worse because the majority of this is on me. Like, almost all of this is me doing this to myself. Phew. Hookay. Lesgo.
The long story short is that I'm suffering from uh.. Quite a . large number of mental disorders. I'm not just talking anxiety or depression; some others include Schizophrenia, Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Psychosis, Bi-Polar and uh.. Yeah. Among those, PTSD is the most prominent. The earlier ones I listed were more as a result of said PTSD and stemmed from that Anxiety and Depression. BUT HEY. I DIDN'T MAKE THIS TO TALK ABOUT THAT--
Basically, I've been neglecting my health; a lot. I mean, some of you might have noticed in the discord, but I really haven't been eating. Initially it hadn't really stretched for longer than like.. two to three days. But uh.. How do I say this? As a result of doing that, I haven't been taking my medications. Any of my medications; and I haven't been taking them frequently enough to save me from the symptoms of them all. As a result, I really haven't been able to focus properly, and I haven't been able to do much of.. Anything. Sleeping sure, I can still do that. Although I've been staying awake until I passed out, I've been skipping on meals, dehydrating myself and uh.. Other things that I'm not really comfortable with sharing.
I'm really sorry to say but my activity is going to go way down from here to.. I really don't know. Of course I will still do all I mentally can to motivate myself. I'll be able to finish apps. Probably. And I'll be able to do posts and all, yes. I will also still be around the discord, but you uh.. Might notice me being more down than I usually am. Less screaming, so I'm sorry about that.
That being said, I'm hoping that it will only take me a week to pull myself together. If there are any updates on my condition, you guys will be the first to know! Thank you for reading through this chunk of Nano's excuses, and again; I'm sorry for being slow in advance :'D